August 26, 2008

To my baby in heaven,

I wonder what you see, sweet child, in the perfect place of your birth. What is His face like, my child, the One I love?

Yours is and will forever be a life of perfect love. You were conceived on July 7, 2008 by the love of your parents. You were due to be born here on or around April 3, 2008. Your father and I would have been 28 at the time of your birth, and we would have reveled at your fingers and toes. I wonder what you would have looked like—beautiful, no doubt.

You were being knit together by your Creator, the One who holds you now. I saw your heartbeat a couple of weeks ago, and thanked God that He was in charge of creating you, and not I. But I know today you are complete and perfect, just as Jesus is, because you have seen His face. I am still being knit together by our Father in the womb of this world. But you, my precious child, are complete, a pure and perfect soul.

And although I am sad for me, that I will have to wait a lifetime to see your face, I am happy for you, because you know the love and joy and perfect peace of the presence of the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. I am thankful to our Father for having been a part of creating you. I was a vessel; you are with the vessel Maker. And I will forever be a vessel carrying you in my heart.

I am looking forward to seeing and knowing you, my precious little one.

Love,

Your mother